I just have few words to say before you read the post..i realized we may have many close friends..but not all of them are ready to listen and comfort you when u need it..sometimes that is understandable..cuz they might be buzy or going through a problem themselves..othertimes..u feel that not everyone can be your special friend that u would turn to when u feel sad..The special friend listens to you even when they are buzy and feel down..they will make u feel better even if they need to feel better..they will ask you even if you did not talk..they will show concern not only with their heart but also with ther words and actions..I realized this this month..because i know now when i need someone to make me feel better..it is not anyone..only specific souls..i am sorry to say that this is disappointing but THIS IS LIFE..WE SHOULD NOT ALWAYS EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM OTHERS...!
Salam Alikom..I kept this post as a draft last summer and i kinda f
eel the same way now..although now its less intense i can say..some of the words here apply to me..to many of us i am sure..it is not always like this..but sometimes we go through some experiences that make us feel this way for some time..until we regain our Strength and Faith again..
A messege to the reader:
i know this is long, and u might think is boring but u will see ur image reflecting back..just read..my friend...just read...
~*~ Please Hear What I am Not Saying ~*~
by:Charles C. Finn, September 1966
Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear for I wear a mask,
a thousand masks, masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
but don't be fooled
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without, that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command and that I need no one, but don't believe me.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this,
don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance, if it's followed by love.
But I don't tell you this.
I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,
will not be followed by love. I'm afraid you'll think less of me...
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand even when that's the last thing I seem to want..
Now after you have read..Do you See your reflection through those words, my friend?I am asking you..do you?
لا حول ولا قوة إلا بالله
توكلت على الله رب العالمين
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