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Sometimes we look around..and we wonder..why we cry..why we whine..why do we get Sad..upSet..and Lost..we look around again and we realize we have many blesSings elhamdu Allah..but we are still not HapPy..

is it Fear..is it discontenment..is it weakness of faith..or is it not knowing what we want..or not wanting to make effort to get what we want..???!!

i am not sure if u understand..but sometimes sAdnesS or fear hits us like a rushing bus..and we wonder why we feel the way we feel..we find ranDom answers..some answers we deny..other answers we refuse to beleive..

i dunno..

u can have EveRything and still not be HapPy and u can have very little and be the most HapPy person in the world..i think one of the worse feelings are not knowing why ur not happy..cuz when u don't know the problem..u can't find a solution..

today while going to the hospital since i started work last week..me and my friend "M" were talking about how much we miss university..i would rather go study now than work.. :)

and it made me think..that maybe some day..when i get married..and have children..pershaps i won't work if i don't need to..cuz there is nuthing more beautiful than being relaXed minded and take care of what is moSt Precious..i don't udnerstand why some people leave their children to the maids or family and go work specially if they don't need the money? ..

not only to take good care of children but also..i think its hard to take care of a house..children..husband and work at the same time..and i meaaaaaaaaaaan it when i say i do appreciate the effort men do while working just to provide money and BuilD a family..God BlesS them :D i really really appreciate it cuz now i know how tiring it is for them..so thank you men :D

any ways..

i just wanna go walk near the beach..walk n walk n walk and put many things and issueS behind me....i miss it............and i would perhaps like to take 2 specific peOPle in my mind to talk with cuz they make me feel better...its a gift..to feel comfrotable with certain people..a blesSing..

اللهم ارزقنا العفاف والغنى والتقوى والهداية والسعادة والقناعة والإيمان الكامل واليقين الصادق وحبك ورضاك وحسن الخاتمة والفردوس الأعلى من الجنة ورضا الوالدين في طاعتك والإخلاص في القول والعمل اللهم آمييييييين