1/04/2008

~*~Please Hear What I am Not Saying~*~

I just have few words to say before you read the post..i realized we may have many close friends..but not all of them are ready to listen and comfort you when u need it..sometimes that is understandable..cuz they might be buzy or going through a problem themselves..othertimes..u feel that not everyone can be your special friend that u would turn to when u feel sad..The special friend listens to you even when they are buzy and feel down..they will make u feel better even if they need to feel better..they will ask you even if you did not talk..they will show concern not only with their heart but also with ther words and actions..I realized this this month..because i know now when i need someone to make me feel better..it is not anyone..only specific souls..i am sorry to say that this is disappointing but THIS IS LIFE..WE SHOULD NOT ALWAYS EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM OTHERS...!

Salam Alikom..I kept this post as a draft last summer and i kinda f
eel the same way now..although now its less intense i can say..some of the words here apply to me..to many of us i am sure..it is not always like this..but sometimes we go through some experiences that make us feel this way for some time..until we regain our Strength and Faith again..


A messege to the reader:
i know this is long, and u might think is boring but u will see ur image reflecting back..just read..my friend...just read...


~*~ Please Hear What I am Not Saying ~*~

by:Charles C. Finn, September 1966


Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear for I wear a mask,
a thousand masks, masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.


Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
but don't be fooled
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without, that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command and that I need no one, but don't believe me.


Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this,


don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance, if it's followed by love.


But I don't tell you this.
I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,
will not be followed by love. I'm afraid you'll think less of me...


but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand even when that's the last thing I seem to want..


Now after you have read..Do you See your reflection through those words, my friend?I am asking you..do you?


لا حول ولا قوة إلا بالله


توكلت على الله رب العالمين


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5 comments:

LioneSS said...

masks ... masks

Who don’t wear masks?
Who don’t like to find someone to hear what he cannot say?

Unfortunately those days it is a great treasure if you find someone to hear what you are saying :(

Great article spring rain

Bookworm said...

Hey marmoora,

I think you showed me this poem sometime last summer. I remember I liked it.

You're right - I think a lot of ppl can relate to this poem, and at least would remember one occassion where they strongly felt like that/related to it.

Spring - blend, please know this: you can always be maskless around me..

Spring-Rain said...

lool lioness..you are soooo right

it is hard to find people who truely care about you and listen to you..i don't mean family cuz many family members are lovely.. but i mean strangers who become our friends..it is not impossible to find a true friend but u need to find them..or they find you :D

but now that i am writting this..i realized

ما في أحلى من إن الإنسان يلجأ إلى الله سبحانه وتعالى ويطلع الي في قلبه والتعب والحزن ويدعي بخشوع ويبكي

ويتوكل حق توكل على الله عز وجل بأن هل السحابة رح تروح بسلام قريبا وإن التعب أجر للمسلم وتقوية

إن الله معنا : )

thanx for ur comment sis : )

BOOoookY BOOK
marmoora ba3ad loool..i like it :D

yeah..sometimes i look back and i say huh how silly i was to think that i was sad and upset at that time..but ya sometimes this mask thing hits us suddenly..ayyyy..it hurts :D

thanx for your suport dear friend..i am sooo glad and proud to have such a BeauTiful friend..really..i mena it : )الله يوفقج دنيا وآخرة عزيزتي

LUNAR said...

Salam ..

Unfortunately, am forced to wear a mask to make people see , listen to what they expect from me ..

removing the mask wont be a very good idea , since ppl wouldnt accept the person without his mask .. So , I have to live my whole life wearing such a mask just to meet the people's desire ...

can you imagine how hard it is ?? to live like that ??

really nice article spring , may god bless you :)

LUNAR.

Spring-Rain said...

Lunar..this is an interesting sentence:

"Unfortunately, am forced to wear a mask to make people see , listen to what they expect from me .."


I can`t relate to what ur saying..i am not sure how it is that u need to live ur WHOLE life masked? The idea sounds scary..is people`s opinion about u more important than you being happy in ur life and just being ur self..?


i don`t undertand..maybe cuz i don`t know exatly how ur dealing with the situation..or what is the situation? is it the society or people at your work place or cultural expectations? I hope someday soon u will be able to be your self and be HaPpy about it insha Allah..i know how it feels to be masked SOMETIMEs..but i am not sure what is exactly that ur going through..

الله يقوينا ويسهل على الجميع ويرزقنا رضاه والفردوس الاعلى من الجنة ولهداية والتقوى وحسن الخاتمة..اللهم آمييين
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