1/27/2009

~*~ ThinGs..I .Hide...In..The..Pot..!! ~*~


Do you know how it is when sometimes you feel like you really can't truely smile or laugh like before..u feel old..serious..u can't Taste life anymore..?

i really beleive that when ur not HapPy with ur self..with who u r now...who u became ..nothing..nooooooothing can make u happy until u become the person you strive to be.a better ..stronger..more successful person...u will not be satisfied until u have a strong faith in Allah in words and action and when u improve ur self as a human being..do soemthing worth in life..fight or challenge ur self to reach ur goals..when u respect ur self that u are trying to be the best person you can be..

sometimes i find it hard to smile or laugh with the people around me..cuz i know deep inside i am not satisfied with who am i today..cuz i know i accumulated too many problems unsolved untill the pot can not handle any more and it pours out or Bursts suddenly..

emmmm..and u know what is the sad..?!!! That u can change that..but somehow u don't until everything gets out of control..and u know whats even worse..?!! that u can not admit ur problems or sadness to ur close family member sor friends cuz people will start judging u and say ur weak..or spoiled..or ToO sensitive..and then u feel even worse..so why tell them in the first place :D ? hehe..any ways ..or even when u tell people how u feel..and they get surprised that ur sad or UpSet..cuz they just can't understand what ur going through..so..u feel even more disapPpointed

Sometimes its easier to talk to strangers..or even on the net..or even to pretend like ur strong and nuthing is wrong...

^__^ any ways...el7amdu Allah for EveryThing...i don't like depRessing Posts but who can i share the things I Hide in the pot with if i don't write it here :D


الحمد الله رب العالمين على فضله وكرمه وجوده

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

salaams,
yop!talking with strangers! they do no not judge us, and even they do, their judgments do not hurt our souls! ;)

Bookworm said...

Heya hun,
*hugs*
What you said struck a chord.

Sometimes you find that you are not happy with yourself, and its not because you didn't achieve your dream yet, but because of a comment, a glance, any trivial thing that gets bigger with time and subconsciously you find yourself lonely and down at crossends, not knowing where to go.

I hope you reach peace with who you are atm, and that you do get to achiever all you want to. And most of all, inshAlla you'll overcome this.

Spring Blend said...

Alikom Esalam Ocean
yea..ur right..sometimes its easier to accept advice from strangers or to complain to them..somehow we might feel that their judgments isare not personal..

Hey BoOKy

ur right about that soemtimes a comment or a word can bring all the hidden emotions out..but the real problem is not the comment..it is that pot that was already full :D

ensha Allah 5air ^_^..i dunno why..i just feel this way every now and then and then it goes away and then again it comes back..maybe cuz i leave many of my problems unsovled..so it never really heals..

Thanks for ur comments both of you :)

sadia said...

ditto booky!
<3
i go through the exact same thing!

Spring Blend said...

Hey Sadia..

yeah..its comforting to know i am not the only one lool..:D

Wish my and ur and all of our SadnsSs goes away and be replaced by Strong Faith, Joy & HapPinEss forever Allahuma Ameeeeeen