~*~ ChildHOoOd MeMories ~*~

I like to think back when I was a child one day..I don't think i was concerned about ‎anything else other than being loved and playing with my cousin "M", her brother "M" ‎and my Brother DOoDY

we were like a gang or something, looking for old canes, analyzing the environment ‎around us, trying to figure out what mysterious Scenarios happened..‎
there

We used to go skating in the parks together..SOoooooo FuUuUuUun..going to al khoor ‎park to ride that 4 wheel bicycles ..going ice skating in "Nady el naser"..‎

I miss being a child,and I don't miss it as well..‎

I miss sending letters down the balcony to my childhood best friend "H" on a night of ‎Ramadan, i miss playing football with my brother's friends

I miss going swimming with the whooooooooole family, my cousinz and all and then ‎eating cheese sandiwich..yummy..‎

I miss doing silly stuff,, like that time when i was going to tarawee7 prayer in Ramadan ‎and i figured out i have no socks and i was wearing short sleeves..‎

or that other time when me and my couzin could not stop giggling during tarawe7 ‎prayer..‎

I miss some of my school friends..who i know little about now..and I don't want to see ‎that happening with my university SwEEeT Friends..‎

why..do people leave..why do they go,,why do they make us think of them as a sweet ‎memory rather than a touchable reality..hmmm...‎

i remember once my brother did a crazy thing..‎

my couzin in Iran was standing in the yard and me and my brother were in the second ‎floor balconi and my brother Poured cold water i think on that poor guy hehehe...rude but ‎FuUnNY...Sorry dude… bad day..!‎

So what is it that you miss the most about ur childhood...? : )

~*~ TOo SomE OnE SpeCiaL ~*~

I realized something today..something that i should have thought about before i guess..

Can u imagine how it feels to suddenly realize that the person whom you thought to be different from you,,turned out to be sooo much like u?_?

SomE people love & appreciate with unspoken words,,untouchable feelings,,they simply find it hard to show their emotions...i guess i am one of them..BUT

u know..my close friends have changed me..

I learned by the hard way..that saying " I Love You" should be expressed and showed..why we wait until the person is gone?

I have this cute friend..who turned to be soo much like me..i like the fact that she can read through my mask..but at the same time it scares me..cuz she can read me someitmes like an open story..SCAAARY!!..cuz thats what i am trying hard to hide and here she comes laughing about it and exposing it hehe:)

I dunno why i am writting this..but i realized today..that I have soo many good and close friends..some are closer..some are close to the heart but for some reason far from the sight!..

My SwEeeEEt passioNaTe friend (M)..

i really forgot what i was going to say..



emmm...you mentioned whether I had a soul mate..and honestly..i dunoo..i don't like to think that ur not close..cuz i realized today that ur one of my faviourte friends ^__^ close to the heart..but far from sight! I dunno...

maybe cuz.........i will tell u one day..

but ur right..you never know who appreciates you..some words are unspoken..some feeling are unexpressed...!

ur letter made me cry..!!i dunno why..maybe i know..but i dont wanna say why or i don't wanna admit it ^_^

u also made me laugh and smile..^________^YuuPPy..ur soo funyn u know that..

any ways...just wanted to say that sometimes we do not realize how much we appreciate someone until something happens..Every thing Happens for a Reason, right?

by the way..its not hard to read my pages, cuz once u open ur Heart, i open mine..that simple : )

~..My Voice..My Future..~

It was a looooooong time ago since i posted anything*-*I realized something!... I start something wiht sooo much enthusiasm and end up feeling numbness about it..hmmm i guess if I keep on the journey with the same enthusiasm, I would have done so many thingd by now

any ways...MY VOICE...MY FUTURE ...the public speaking contest me and my friends "N" and "Z" participated in..honestly,,for me it was just a dream to be able to speech in front of soo maaaaany people and to talk about my thoughts, my feelings and to be " simpLy Me"

at the beginning,, it was really hard to Be " me" and i thought soo many times of dropping off the contest because i felt i was faking it-i did not feel (3afaweeyah)

the closer the contest got,, that more enthusiasm i had.. that really feels good..i never really beleived i would public speak! NEVER! I only imagined it and it felt good but SCArY!!

Winning the first prize was one of the most weird feelings i ever had..happy..shocked..surprised? wondered? i dunno..many strange and mixed feelings..and to be true to myself..i was kinda sad or lets say challenged..because I realized it is hard to be on top..but once ur there..it is hard to stay there..u know?

so i feel now i need to put more strength...more enthusiasm, more enrgy, more effort and even more time to my future..


I was pretty much impressed by the girls' speeches too..

ELHAMDEALLAH FOR THE BLESSINGS OF ALLAH AND THEN

A BIG THANK YOU TO MY BEST FRIEND "N" for supporting me..being there for me..AND BOOKWARM? U WERE AMAZZZZZZZZING..I WAS IMPRESSED

A BIG THANK YOU TO MY TRAINER "KIM"..FOR ENCOURAGING ALL OF US

A BIG THANK YOU FOR MY BROTHERS..FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS, SPECIALLY "K" & "A"

and thank you for all who were there for me..on that day..tuesday 22 of May, 2007 : )

My last words for now are " BELEIVE IN YOUR SELF, BELEIVE YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE"

^_______^

LeSsoNs Of LiFe دروس مــن الحــيـــاة

Lessons Of Life...

This is deticated to all who contributed in shaping me, Who I Am, guiding and teaching me the "lessons of life",as my enthusiastic friend "The Love & Passion supporter", says.

1. I learned that we should always look at those below us to appreciate & remember the blessing of Allah "God"

2. I learned that we are incomplete and insuffecient, so we should always strive for more. to be more kind, more knowldgeable, more courageous and more..cuz once you think your fulfilled, you will stay where you are, if not retreat, and people will progress

3. I learned that contented people are happier than others cuz they don't spend days & nights counting what they don't own or have & what others do. remember..Contentment & NOT subjection

4. I learned that those who put limits to what they can and can't, live up to those limits and boundaries. And can never jump to become who they would have become if they only have widened their boundaries.

5. تعلمت أن الإبتسامة تربط النفوس ببعضها و أن التصافح بمحبة يولد التقارب

6. تعلمت أن طبيعة الإنسان تحدد بطبيعة صديقه

7. تعلمت أن الحياة بلا أصدقاء كالغابة بلا أشجار، كالسماء بلا زرقة كالصحراء بلا رمال

8. تعلمت أن الطبيعة ملجأ للأرواح الضائعة وللنفوس المتعطشة التي تتوق لتروي ظمأ معارك الحياة

9. تعلمت أن الإنسان ضعيف الإيمان، إنسان متخبط في حياته، مشتت بين أحلامه، متزعزع النفس، يسد جوعه بملذاته التي سرعان ما تخبو في بحر أوهامه

10. تعلمت أن من يستمتع بإيذاء الآخرين و السخرية منهم، إنسان يعاني من نقص في المشاعر، إنسان يعاني من غياب الضمير، إنسان غير واثق من خطواته

11. تعلمت أن ليس كل متحدث بارع ذكي ولا كل صامت غبي..يقولون أن لنا أذنان و فم واحد لنسمع أكثر مما نتكلم

فاحذر من كلماتك و فكر قبل أن تنطلق الحروف من ثغرك

12. تعلمت أن من يرتقي بنظراته للأمور ويعلو من شأن طموحاته ويربت على أكتاف أحلامه ولا يتردد أو يتكاسل عن الغوص لخوض معارك الحياة، إنسان ناجح ليش بالضرورة لأنه سوف يصل إلى مراده لكن لأنه في رحلة البحث عن مراده

SwEeT NaTuRE

خضار يلامس شغاف قلبي الصغير. يلاعب مشاعري ويهمس لنبضات الحب التي تتوق للترحال إلى مكان لا كذب ولا نفاق ولا ظلم فيه...

This greenish view touches my heart, amuses my emotions & whispers to the beats of love that longs to return to a place with no lies and, no hate & no injustice…

10 Things We Should all DO !!

1. Smile, its for free,, so why ur keeping that cute smile hidden my darling? ^___^

2.Eaaaaaaaaaaat healthy food..u will thank me when u get older..

3.Respect, Help & Appreciate you parents and tell them you Love them...will u?

4.To light a candle is beter than to curse darkness (wisdom)

5.Learn from your Past, Live the present, Set your goals in life and never spend too much thinking about the future...hmmmm i need to work on this...

6.Find a good friend that you trust. A true friend is not difficult to find if you look for him/her in the right place and right time

7. Be Your self, SiMpLy YoU

8.Don't Opress people around you and most Importantly DONT OPRESS YOUR SELF like I do :) any one that knowns how to be more honest and bold, let me know pls ! ^_^

9.In everyhting you say or do, try to be honest, loyal and sincere

10.Think Positive, Act Positive & Be Positive

Blabbing

Lead me to the true light away from the darkness of life’s temptation

Keep me between the hands of conscience save me from reckless
immolation

Enlighten me

Help me seek the truth above the lure of the wolfs and the voices of dead lost desperate souls that fear eradication

Spring-Rain

قصة وهم

ما أجمل النوم في سبات عميق.. نغلق آذاننا عن صراعات الذئاب.. نلتهي بأحلامنا الوردية التي تلون عقولنا وهما

ما أجمل النوم..أو هكذا نظن.. نسكت صرخات أنين الأطفال.. نخنق ذاكرتنا عن تذكر مآسينا و جهلنا.. غريب أمرنا

نطالب بحقوقنا التي اغتصبوها..ألم نغتصب نحن عقولنا.. ألم نغتصب مبادئنا..؟ لا نزال نتساءل.. أين ذهبت أراضينا؟.. أين دفنت هويتنا؟

قف..يا من تدعي الرجولة..يا من تدعي الإيمان.. يا من تدعي الإبصار..عميت عيناك يوم قبلت واقعك.. يوم غلفت

عقلك وقلبك بغلاف من حديد.. قف و تأمل وقل لي ماذا ترى؟ أترى ضحكات أطفال أم صيحات أشباه جنود عقدت ألسنتهم؟

أترى شعبا خصبا مرفوع الرأس أم ذليلا كسير الظهر يحترق ألما.. قل لي ماذا ترى؟ وسوف أقول لك ما لم ترى بعد..